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Friday, August 11, 2006

Sea of Love

Come and find me.
I am a human at sea like you, like everyone.


Friday, July 21, 2006

Homophobia is W.R.O.N.G

What is wrong with the world:

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to ! show aff ection to other men.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person everyone thinks is confused because I am attracted to men and women.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

 


Tuesday, July 18, 2006

"I don't need to tell you what this is about. Start on the inside and work your way out."

Notes Notes Notes
Words Words Words
Love Love Love
Hate Hate Hate
This side, That side

Finding myself was easier than I thought: (a recipe)

  1. Keep away from friends.
  2. Think about one's situation.
  3. Examine wardrobe, and decide what I don't like.
  4. Dress how you feel on the inside.
  5. Delete MySpace acount.
  6. Fix the family relationships first.
  7. Take the friend list, and like the wardrobe, throw out what you don't plan on using.
  8. Start on the inside and work your way out.

 


Thursday, July 06, 2006

About me----before Satan takes over

I ran across this after an hour or so of scholarship searches.
I don't think it'll interest most of you, but oh well.
I'd put it on my myspace but....yeah I dont have one anymore.
So go ahead and learn about me.
I do enjoy my life so much without the worries of sympathy...compassion...all that good stuff.

 

Everything Anyone Ever Wanted To Know About You

The Basic Stuff
Name?: Val
Age?: 17 
Height?: 6'4
Weight?: 190
Birthday?: 21489
Birthplace?: t-town
Current Location?: t-town
School/Grade?: Memo, 12th
Zodiac Sign?: Aqueerious
Chinese Zodiac Sign?: snake biotch
Righty or Lefty?: righty, but ambidextrous in bed 
Haircolor?: dark brown
Eyecolor?: brown, almost hazel 
Skin Color?: tan you jealous fuckers
About You
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?: 2 bro bros 1 pop and 1 ma 1 dog
Any Pets?: 1!
If So What Are They?: 1 very cute dog
Favorite Relative?: dog....brother....brother!
Least Favorite Relative?: retarded uncles
What's Your Heritage/Race?: MEXICAN
Political Affilation?: Republican
Love & Sex
Sexuality?: dont ask dont tell
Are You In A Relationship Now?: nooo
If So, With Whom?: gah I miss Phil
For How Long?: FOREVER
Are You In Love?: with him, yes. 
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?: Yes
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?: Thats a given
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?: 11
Virgin?: yeah, like pamela anderson
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?: 13
Was It Enjoyable?: yeah at the moment
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?:  fourgy
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?: shhh.....
Best Love Quote?: "My love for you is like a scar, ugly but permanent" 
Your Friends
Best?: Oreo
How Many Do You Have?: not anymore
More Guys Or Girls?: guys, now.
Love Them All?: no
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?: no, they always disappoint me.
Oldest?: ........Marshall - 42
Newest?: Jill, the red head
Pen Pal?: I dont care for foreigners 
Friends And Words: Associate Them
Pen: ink
Flower: magnolia
Pink: brown
Window: linen 
Heart: cardio 
Mother: fucker 
Bread: money 
Insane: bitch
Sunglasses: Gucci 
Pimp: Val
Cross: walk
Lonely: my dog when I leave
Car: ferrari
Music: Cat Power
This Or That
Boxers or Briefs?: none
Thongs or G-Strings?: none (G-string)
Shorts or Pants?: pants, gentlemen dont wear shorts
Shoes or Barefeet?: shoes
Books or Movies?: books
Night or Day?: night, I hate the sun
Dark or Light?: dark
Mountains or Beach?: mountains
Snow or Sun?: snow
Pepsi or Coke?: water
Guys or Girls?: The Fellas 
Swim or Surf?: surf 
For or Against
Gay Marriage?: Not Yet
Abortion?: Against it (circumstances apply)
Bush Getting Re-elected?: too dumb...politcally impossible
Suicide?: not me
War?: too nasty, pointless
Pants?: not in the night time 
Clothes In General?: I LOVE FASHION
Penises?: please
Favorites
Color?: brown
Number?: 6
Holiday?: My B-Day biotch...New Years really
Season?: winter....fo sho
Movie?: girl, interrupted
Book?: damn....Body Language
Magazine?: Vanity Fair, thats right I'm better than you 
Food?: french 
Drink?: water
TV Show?: Law & Order: SVU
Song?: Black Dog
Band?: Led Zeppelin
Computer Game?: -----
Video Game?: Tomb Raider...Im cool
Anime/Manga?: what the hell is Manga....Yugioh!
Shirt?: Banana Republic
Pants?: True Religion
Actor?: Collin Ferrel
Actress?: Christina Ricci
Singer?: Robert Plant
Flower?: Roses
Scent?: Georgio Armani: Aqua de Gio
Animal?: My dog
Cookie?: = fat
The Future
Want To Go To College?: Yeah
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: Pharmacist
Want To Get Married?: No...maybe 
Want To Have Kids?: maybe
What Would Their Names Be?: Adoption...they have names
How Many?: I dont know...depends on my income 
Where Do You Want To Live?: Chicago, because I have good taste
Where Do You Want To Get Married?: I dont know
How Do You Want To Die?: fighting a god-damned tiger
More Stuff About You
Piercings?: I used to have my nipple
Tattoos?: haha.... 
Smoke?: occasionally
Drink?: margaritas with my madre 
Do Drugs?: no
Skinny Dip?: depends on the company 
Greatest Fear?: no fear
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Vanilla...bean
Go To Church?: no
Religion?: Roman Catholic
Scars?: not that I know of 
CDs Owned?: ???
Collections?: ???
Like To Be Naked?: yeah, I love my body 
Ever Eaten Sushi?: favorite food
An Entire Case Of Oreos?: what the hell is up with this question? 
Been On Stage?: yeah
Danced In The Rain?: yeah...(madi, do you remember?)
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?: no what are you talking about
Weirdest Dream?: Mrs. Riddle in my dream----- I love her though
Best Dream?: flying
Saddest Dream?: my mommy died
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?: flying ones
Think You're Attractive?: haha...have you seen me? Of course I do
Shoplifted?: Yeah, thanks Madi
Been Caught "Doing Something"?: Yeah.....embarrassing
Weirdest Makeout Place?: Behind Borders....dont ask.
Like Thunderstorms?: Love....complete utter infatuation with them.
Favorite Shoes?: Louis Vuitton...Thanks Aunt 
Favorite Quote?: "Give me a fish and I eat for a day, Teach me to fish and I eat for a lifetime." 
Best Advice Given?: Just don't listen to the common people and you'll be alright - Aunt Kassie
Worst Advice Given?: Dont be gay! haha...
Favorite Song Lyric?: "they say the truth will set you free, but so will a lie. It all depends on whether you're trying to get to the promised land, or you're just trying to get by." - Ani Difranco
What Quote Says Most About Your Life?: Just don't listen to the common people and you'll be alright. haha...
Glad This Is Over?: Yeah, but it was fun.


Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Buddhism

I have to say this summer has been lovely.

the sun.

the lack of me working Monday through Wednesday.

My Mistress Madi and I's adventures in purloining.

and the relaxing excitement of reading.

could life getting and better?

yes, with college.

now I say, I know no one is on Xanga anymore because of the almighty Myspace ( I myself have given up and now am part of the Myspace family as well.

has fate brought you to me, no.

I will not give into your games.

or anyone else's for that matter.

come all, to the park we go.

to lay under the tree and hope.

hope for the future.

hope for the present.

hope that we will change the past.

even though hoping is pointless..............



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